I Wonder If the Kisses are Better

So it would seem as if this blog is kind of “4gotten,”  huh?  I guess in the past month or so things have been nothing but more of the same.  And I didn’t feel like reiterating things. 

I’m still seeing OM on a once a month basis.  I’m not complaining about that.  I can’t really.  I have no say in his family life and what he can handle. 

However there seems to be a new devolopement in my life.  I’ve become friends w/ a wonderful, beautiful, genuine, down to earth woman.  She’s absolutely amazing.  And yes, I now have a raging crush on her.  It’s a good thing she’s a lesbian. Altho, not so good because she has a girlfriend. 

Yes, I seem to manage to get my crushes on people that are not attainable.  I’ve realized this.  Not something I aspire to, but not something that can be helped. 

And I can’t help but wish w/ my every breath that something would happen to break them up.  Hell, I wished that for OM and his wife (and it almost did happen!)  But at the same time, I really only want her happiness, I’m willing to forego my own.  She deserves every nice thing this world has to offer her.

So in closing, here’s to hoping I find the guy… OR GIRL…. of my dreams.   She’s given me hope.