Something Casual, Maybe

So it’s been a little over 3 months since I’ve last been fucked.  And right about now, I’m wondering if I’m ever going to get fucked again.  But not really. 

It’s become an addiction for me, looking at Craigslist’s Casual Encounters.  And I’m beginning to wonder if maybe I should either post an ad or reply to one?!   Right around this time of the month, the urge to fuck is great… And since I’m nearing my sexual peak, well it’s kinda hard to hold out for “something more.”   

Maybe I’m not meant for something more.  Maybe I’m just meant to suck and fuck as many men who want me?!  I don’t know.  Because it seems like, even from those guys who say they want something more, fucking on the first date is what’s on their agenda.  I could have been laid quite a few times by now if I wasn’t so stubborn!

You know. . . Maybe if I stopped torturing myself w/ those ads and reading other peoples’ sex blogs, I wouldn’t be in this situation?!

On The Road Again

I’m dating.   I don’t know why.  Sometimes it just feels so futile.  But I guess I’m finding something worth all the hassle.

I signed up on a free dating site.  And I’ve come across quite a few guys I’d love to try and find that right chemistry w/.  Someone I’d be able to look at every waking day.  Someone I’d love to meet at the door wearing nothing but a red ribbon and some high heels.  But, alas, they’re not interested in me. 

This website shows you who has looked at you and I’ve gotten quite a few peeks, however, I must not be their type physically …. Because it sure as hell couldn’t be what I had to say.  Come on  — what man is afraid of being loyal.  Of having a job and a car.  Of knowing how to pickup a phone and talk on it.  Of not having to be constantly complimented to stroke their already gigantic ego.  And who promises above all not to lie to me. 

Really …  I don’t ask for much.  And actually, I’m not getting much in return.  In the month I’ve been on the dating site, I’ve gone out on 4 dates, w/ 4 different guys.  None so far have been worthy of repeat offending.  Altho, the one I had just recently, possibly may.  Who knows what’s the my cards.

For someone who loves sex as much as I do, I’m sure not jumping on the guys who want to jump on me.  Maybe in my old age, I’ve gotten a lot more picky, a lot more selective.  Maybe I’m finally getting into that “settling down” stage.   I think that’s what it is.  And I think for once, I’d actually like to write about my sex life w/ one guy …. not many.  

But for now, until I find that knight in shining armor, who has a few tattoos and can be comfy in dickies,  I’ll just be the little hum drum engine that couldn’t.