Something Casual, Maybe

So it’s been a little over 3 months since I’ve last been fucked.  And right about now, I’m wondering if I’m ever going to get fucked again.  But not really. 

It’s become an addiction for me, looking at Craigslist’s Casual Encounters.  And I’m beginning to wonder if maybe I should either post an ad or reply to one?!   Right around this time of the month, the urge to fuck is great… And since I’m nearing my sexual peak, well it’s kinda hard to hold out for “something more.”   

Maybe I’m not meant for something more.  Maybe I’m just meant to suck and fuck as many men who want me?!  I don’t know.  Because it seems like, even from those guys who say they want something more, fucking on the first date is what’s on their agenda.  I could have been laid quite a few times by now if I wasn’t so stubborn!

You know. . . Maybe if I stopped torturing myself w/ those ads and reading other peoples’ sex blogs, I wouldn’t be in this situation?!

Anonymous Rendezvous

I have a place I need to be at a certain time. I need to be at the hotel to meet you. Altho I don’t know you, not your name, what you look like, where you’re from, or your age (altho you have assured me you are legal,) I trust you. The reason I trust you: you’re making a fantasy come true. We’ve only talked a few times in the chatrooms, but in that time, I figured “What the hell?” You’re a stranger, you’re not going to judge me. You’re feeling adventureous just like me. You appreciate my forwardness.I tell you I want to meet you at a hotel. I want you to be there waiting for me. In the dark. No lights on, no blinds or curtains open. I want you to get a feel for the room in the dark, so you can guide me. So you can set me where you like and do what you like. We’ve discussed that there is no talking, our mouths can not even form whispered words. The only sounds allowed are the ones that come freely of the pleasure being had.

There are no other rules.

 This has been a fantasy of mine now for over 10 years.  Ever since the internet came into my life.  Ever since I talked to an out of state business man who had come here for work, who found me, who suggested something like this.  If it weren’t for him, I doubt I’d ever have thought of having complete anonymous sex.   

I’ve even gone one step farther and had the Stranger become someone I know.  Altho the person may know me, I don’t know that it’s him.  He uses a different name, maybe.  He tells me he’s from out of state, but only truly lives 10 miles from me, if that, maybe.    And maybe the rules have changed….Maybe it’s just that I don’t know it’s him on the internet, but when I go to the hotel room, it’s lit up and I see his face.  Or we keep the lights off and he talks to me.   The only question remaining, once I know it’s him, will I take the chance?

I’m in lust w/  the idea of having a secret rendezvous w/ a stranger.